Wednesday, August 31, 2005
hello! haha. here are some lovely pics from today! oh, those who want me to send you the pics, email me your email okay? my email is
euniceness@hotmail.com yup! haha. okay. oh, and jojo can you send me the pics you took with your cam? :D haha ok. enjoy!

luleelulu (ashlyn) and me

me, huiting, jojo!

haha. enen and enen! :D

hoho (jinyee) and luleelulu

luleelulu, claire, and hoho.

me and gale!

larine, me, jo-ann!

me and zoe! haha. dimple smile zoe tey! :D

sam! my girlgirl! sam, I AM YOUR MOTHER! :D

haha. girlgirl and me again! (:

me and xingyi

ongko and i. MY JELLY BEANS (:

jo-ann! my pretty designer babe!

us! kara, ongko, me, andrea, jojo, wooneh, xingyi!

hahahahahahahahahahahha.. my funny korkor! (:

before lunch (: see! it's on the table :D YUM!

hello korkor! :D
♥ 2:31 PM
Monday, August 29, 2005
HELLO. passed on msg to all webs (:
"hello! Just an idea... For our church anniversary rally... Dont think our friends would be very interested in the CD and to go coz its maybe more for adults... So teachers day is coming up! we can bless our teachers with a CD and invite them for the rally... IF they don't come, at least Ps. Ed's sermon will be a blessing to them... For our non-believing teachers, salvation would be the best gift they would ever receive! Pass on the msg to other webs you know "
this weekend was sad. and i dont know what to do. give in again? nsfety8i. sometimes i feel so used and taken for granted. aiya. dunno lah. but nevermind. i shant be sad (: cos whatever happens, happens. if i dont like whatever happens then.. too bad lah. cant be bothered.. for now i guess.
BARBURRDEEDOOP!
haha. i'm so happy. today was geog test. i dont think i'll do well for it. might fail.. but at least it's over and done with! haha. oral was fine i guess. heh. there are NOMORE tests this week! yummy! :D
haha. our new lit teacher, ms ng, didnt fully zip her pants today. the zip was at the side so not that bad la.. but then whenever she lifted up her arms (which she did pretty often) we all could see her fats squeezing out of the top of her zipper.. damn eeyer. but damn farni. i was trying very had to hold back my laughter. oh, mrs yeo's shirt seemed to unbutton itself at the bottom too. so we could see her belly button from time to time.. haha. ok nevermind.
i was supposed to diet today. didnt eat recess. ate a sinful rainbow doughnut after oral. and alot more food when i got home.. sigh! popo made some kinda soup.. so i took that for my so called lunch. and then i made beef ball soup for my dinner! it was much too peppery though. ohwells. daddy came home with a pizza and cookies! yummy! cos he went to some hotel in town i think with uncle paul and aunty steph then the hotel people gave them one pizza each! cos they're trying to make daddy and the interns happy so that pastor edmund will decide to hold the men's retreat and the ladies' retreat at that hotel! then they'd earn BIG BUCKS. my dad calculated 40000 bucks at least.YUMMY :D the pizza was nice i ate almost half of it! that's way amazing. i eat so much! i need to diet NOW. and ive gotta be much much more disciplined. oh, and EXERCISE! hahaha. nevermind. i'm pretty sure i'll never get down to serious business in the end lahh.
today is candace's birthday! candace ong, by the way. so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANDACE! (:
xingting's birthday is coming this saturday. audrey's birthday is on monday. guoren's birthday is on tuesday. sihui and michele's birthdays are on wednesday. and juenli and juenmei's birthdays are the following week. haha. so um, happy early birthday everybody! :D
i'm going to buy my new swimming costume tomorrow i think. might buy teachers day presents for miss ng and mrs yeo and perhaps laoshi. but it'll depend on my mood lah! :D i'm so nice and mean :D oh! i wanna go to mg pri and see mrs leong and laoshi. but too bad cannot see mrs quek. cos she's RETIRED. she said she'd be in school when we got our psle results okay! she wasnt there la! poot ):
hm. the eng book assignment thine is due really soon. ive got two books more left to finish. i'd better buck up. oh, and during the one week break ive lotsa projects to settle, i think. and after the one week break ive lotsa tests. so i'd better prepare for those too. dont wanna panic last minute again. ayy.. i'd better come up with my pre exam study schedule shit. gotta get organised! sigh. i'm becoming a nerd. and my degree has shot up quite alot i think. cant see people's faces from far. and my dad wont let me wear contacts la! shiatt. gotta wear my glasses more often liao. then i'd be a complete nerd geek. BAHHH!! oh, dont be offended if i see you around and i dont say hi to you or whatever.. it's most prolly cos i cant see you. yup :D
okay. gonna make full use of this one week break, i hope lah. hope to pull up my grades.
oh, this sat i should be going celefest with xingting and kara and jojo. hee! my mum says i can go. yay! but i'm gonna leave ard 3 cos ive got web (: wanna go? :D
aiakk aiakk aiakkkk.
i feel happy and sad. i shall act cute and pout now.
POUT.
haha. okay. i need to go now. oh! SEE. i
can type long posts. boring ones, but nevermind. umm.. nevermind. byebye!
:D
[edit]
oh! check these! damn funny (x
piepod fleabag fishing
♥ 7:49 PM
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Now, don't just walk away
Pretending everything's ok
And you don't care about meAnd I know there's just no use
When all your
lies become your truths and
I don't care...
Could you look me in the eye And tell me that you're happy nowWould you tell it to my face or have I been erased, Are you happy now? You took all there was to take,
And left me
with an empty plateAnd you don't care about it, yeah.
And I am givin' up this gameI'm leaving you with all the blame cause
I don't careCould you look me in the eye? And tell me that you're happy nowWould you tell it to my face or have I been erased, Are you happy now?Do you really have everything you want?
You could never give somethin' you ain't got
You can't run away from yourself
Could you look me in the eye? and tell me that you're happy now,come on, tell it to my face or have i been replaced,are you happy now?are you happy now?Would you look me in the eye?Could you look me in the eye?I've had that all I can takeI'm not about to breakCause I'm happy nowAre you happy now?
♥ 12:53 PM
Friday, August 19, 2005
hello.
uploaded a song onto my blog. does it play? it's love makes the world go round by ashlee simpson. okay. today wasnt all that good. interestingly, mrs yue was in a very good mood today. home ed was quite slack. amanda and i were daydreaming while mrs yue rambled on about home ed stuff. and then we got started with out cushion cover. and then mrs yue prayed for us. how nice (: and then after that was math test. didnt manage to study for it. but it was okay lah. but ive one question wrong already! sigh. anyways, after math was bio. copy copy notes. so boring. and then after that was recess. i ate laksa! i added alot of chilli and it was very hot so i was the last to finish. and then after that i ate milo nuggets. and then there was history and then english and then values ed. we had values ed in the audi. it was really boring and the nice chairs made me so sleepy. hah.
now jo doesnt talk to me. it's not my fault i'm paranoid about stuff like that. i mean; you know what i mean right? sigh. ): then we went to class and then me and ashlyn went for netball. daphne finally came again this week. heh (: lydia has anime pics all over her wallet. gosh she's obsessed.
jiejie went back after home ed today. she's not feeling well ): her temp is low - 35.4. she felt cold but she was perspiring. poor jiejie ): get well soon jie. love you.
mabel is going westmall today. hopefully the pretty flipflops are still there. hah. oh ya. my dad ordered a comp afew days ago and dell is delevering it tmr i think. hah. he wont let me buy my lovely pink weights. he says they're much too expensive. they're only $15++ dollars for crying out loud. and he wont let me buy it with my own money either. sigh. this must be one of the many "no means no" matters that he's prejudiced against. oh, and he asked me what i'm gonna use the weights for. hmm.. i wonder.. oh, he shouted. face red; eyes popping out. so fierce. sigh. and all i did was ask nicely ): last night daddy was in a happy mood. he asked why i didnt wake him up to pass him the phone when someone had called for him. and i said to him straight in the face that he was a grumpy old man and usually if i did that he'd have shouted the shit out of me. and then i imitated him. and then we all laughed our asses off. hah.
hope tmr will be worthwhile. yeah. oh, ive put on lotsa weight.
jo calls me meaty chubby. but that was when she talked to me. sigh ): haha. i asked jaime to help me with my testimony and she thought i was going to be baptised and she almost congratulated me. so funny (x
okay. time to finish up my testimony that's wayy overdue. shouldnt be too hard i suppose? hah.
hey. you made it to the end of my long post. bet ive bored you to death. anyways, you deserve a star (:
byebye!
♥ 5:53 PM
Tuesday, August 16, 2005

All I Want To Do
Eoghan Heaslip
All I want to do is
be close to You
And all I want to say
Is
thank You for the way
You love me
You love me (Chorus)
You are faithful to all that You have promised
And loving in all of Your ways
And still with all of my failings
You love me
You love me
You love me
Music and lyrics by Eoghan Heaslip
© Daybreak Music
CCLI# 3154175
♥ 3:49 PM
Monday, August 15, 2005
Jesus loves meAnna Bartlett Warner, 1859
Jesus loves me! This I know,
for the Bible tells me so.
little ones to him belong;
they are weak, but he is strong.
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so.
Jesus loves me! he who died
heaven's gate to open wide;
he will wash away my sin,
let his little child come in.
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so.
Gentle Jesus, with me stay
close beside me all the way;
when at last I come to die
take me home with thee on high.
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so.
♥ 2:23 PM
Thursday, August 11, 2005
so heres what's happened recently.
went fop on friday. it was awesome. the worship was just so wow. God was there. so like. wow. quite enjoyed the company of my bro and tim and guoren and gideon and gideon's friend and clarice. yeah. it was really funny.
had 24/7 prayer on sat. i only went for the 3-5 timeslot. but i followed my bro to church at 1 to study. did my history and math homework. hah (: anyways, it was good. yeah.
then on sunday we had missions training. and again, it was really good.
then on monday there was national day celebrations. damn boring. then after that jo-ann, andrea, amanda ongko, amanda woon, huiting, mabel, nickky, kara and i went to town. yup. went to heeren and then to cine. then i went home with nicky. saw jon in the mrt. he was sleeping so i woke him up. hehh :D dont be pissed. oh and i saw redhill mrt station. it's lovely pink. reached home at about 2 smth. couldn't sleep so i stoned around until 7 smth. and then at 830 we left for church. overnight prayer was good la. didnt really manage to stay up that well though. kinda regret going out on monday. ohwells.
didnt do much on tuesday or wednesday. just stoning around.
today had swimming pe. it was okay la.
i just ate damn lot of food today. dont ask me to list what i ate cos it's damn embarassing. and now i feel disgusting and bloated. i might just puke.
i dont feel like doing anything now. i've gotta finish my overdue lit assignment by tonight- the essay on romeo. guess that's all that ive gotta finish by tonight. don't think there'll be any time left to do anything else anyways. it's already 1103. by the time i get off the comp it'll be 1130. and then by the time i get started it'll be 1230. and i'd get bored by 1240 so i think i might as well save the effort and go to sleep now.
for now, i still need to..
write my testimony. (due 13/8)
read my 10 storybooks. (due 02/9)
read on jim elliot and write a short report (due 18/9)
and settle
that.
oh and btw i came up with 70 names lastnight. how sad ):
oh yes. jo-ann, jasmine and mabel say that they can make it tmr. i'm worried that jas won't be able to make it lastminute again. really hope she can make it. oh, and i need to msg jojo (EYEBALLS) tonight to tell her the address and details and to arrange. not sure if mab is going cos i dont think my parents can fetch her. so if mab cant go i hope jas and jojo can go together cos if one doesnt go the other sure dont wanna go. so well. yeah. hope tomorrow will be fun and not a total disappointment again. yeah, again.
i know theres something else i need to do. but i just cant remember what it was. damn.
i feel so freaking lazy.
i wanna eat lots.
i dont wanna exercise.
i dont wanna go out.
i dont wanna study.
oh, and i figured; i'm not good at anything. poot.
ok thats all. do i sound happy? goodnight. <3
♥ 11:40 PM
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
i just dont know what to do about everything now..as i walk alone in the cold rain,my mind drifted away to the past.to what we used to beto the secrets we used to share.how i wish you were here with me,sharing the umbrellain this lonely yet cold night.whispering sweet nothings in my eari miss you so much.[edit]
he's not coming to singapore anymore. yeah. after 3 or 4 years. he told me he's coming back this year and he's gonna stay for quite some time by himself but his dad says he's not coming back anytime soon. yeah. not at all. feeling really upset. really been looking forward. but i guess i'm not gonna make a fuss out of it. dont come then dont come i guess. but he'd better make it up to me cos ive really been looking forward to seeing him this year. he promised me his band's cd so he'd better ask his brothers who are coming in october to give it to me. oh, and we've lost all forms of communication. that freaking sucks.
thats not nice ):
i think i'll journal tonight. theres just
so much i wanna say.
hmm.
gotta finish my romeo report thing for lit. and learn my tingxie. thats for tomorrow. other than that, if i'm not wrong exams are just around the corner. so i really gotta start studying like shit soon cos i dont really understand much of whats been going on this term or during the last semester and i cant affort to screwup again. yeah. so after this weekend it;s time to get serious. yup. ive gotta start thinking about my testimony for the mission trip. extended deadline is this sat. and also look for a missionary's biography to study for the mission trip. deadline for that is quite soon too. gotta write a report. sounds quite interesting so i guess i'm looking forward to getting started and finishing it on time. oh yes, and ive gotta finish six more storybooks for that english assignment everyone else has finished. that one is due end of this term and if i dont finish it i miss ng is bound to humiliate me and make my life freaking miserable for the rest of my stay in mg sec. so yeah. i'd better get started.
yeah i think that's all. and then i'll go to sleep and never wake up again. yeah. goodnight world.
♥ 2:20 PM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
i just dont know what to do about everything now..
i dont wanna make a mistake and regret it. but i dont wanna sit around and let our friendship rot slowly. i dont know whether i should end it or salvage it. i'm quite tired. and ive more than one friendship thats going down the drain. most that would take along many bittersweet memories. but now? ah. i dont know what to do.
but theres this one situation. fine. more than one. ive prettymuch had it. not gonna get anymore out of me for now. until you something happen. until you bother to make the effort. dont call me your whatever anymore.
yeah.
am i not trying hard enough? or am i trying too hard? whatever it is i'm still not there. maybe im doing it wrong.
all i know is that i need God in my life. i need His love and guidance and strength. but am i treating Him just like my panadol pill?
i dont know i dont know ):
i'm just frustrated.
i could sense God in the sanctuary during overnight prayer, cos of what was happening around me. but i didnt sense anything within me. i knew God was at the overnight prayer. but did He walk past me? i know God loves me. but did he look at me and say "oh nevermind. " or is my heart not right.
i dont know i dont know ):
♥ 6:04 PM
Saturday, August 06, 2005
no one takes me seriously anymore. in fact i bet they've never taken me seriously in the first place. and i'm not in one of those whiney moods. i'm freaking serious.
how dumb of me to think actually i meant something to you (as a friend). how could i have been so damn naive. i bet if i ignore you for the rest of your life; you wouldn't even know. and even if you noticed; although im quite sure you wldnt; you wouldn't mind. i know i'm being overly sensitive. but hell that's the way i am.
forget it. theres no point blogging it here. it's pointless.
i dont know why i always get myself upset over such matters.. wonder why history keeps on repeating itself.. what the hell is wrong with my life. what the hell is wrong with everyone; myself included. not that im included. FREAKSHIT.
i seriously just wanna scream. shut up dont talk to me. i just wanna be alone. sorry.
i swear i saw this coming.. kinda had a gut feeling this would happen; again. and yet i chose to trust.. cos i thought tomorrow would be a better day. lol. yeah. i actually believed you. i actually trusted everything you said.
see. i knew this shit would happen. freakshit. how could i have been so damn naive. OVER AND OVER.
and i cant believe im mocking myself.
i guess it's over? our so called friendship, i mean. ayy. dont think too far. i promised myself i'd stay single till after jc. and no one like-likes me anyway. and even if anyone does they dont really mean it. and i dont like-like anyone either. and i dont
really get along with anyone much in the first place.
ah whatever. ive given up trying. whatever happens, happens. i'm sick of being the only one who gets upset by the whole thing. while the other person is having the time of his/her life. wth the person doesnt even know what the hells gone wrong. it's just not worth it getting freaking upset. whatever. just..
whatever. this is all just such a waste of emotion.. and yet..
Something isn't right
I can feel it again feel it again
This isn't the first time
That you left me waiting
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I don't know whyI let you in
I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong
(something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)
So take your empty words your broken promises
And all the time you stole cause I am done with this
I can give it away give it away
I'm doin everything I should've
And now I'm makin a change
I'm living the day
I'm giving back what you gave me
I don't need anything guess i'm falling again.. but into my heavenly father;s arms this time? i'm learning. it;s a journey. and i think i'm still quite at the beginning after all these years. but i think this time it's just.. different. dont wanna have secondhand faith. dont wanna be a "hell-im-prefectly-holy" hypocrite christian. i'm learning. step by step i guess....
song by korkor. once again; really ministering.
ONLY YOUGalvin Why am I feeling this wayWhen You're the Lord of my days
Have I really surrendered?
Have I given all to You?
I know the things that I should do
I should be holding unto YouHave I been blinded somehow?
This heart is crying out to YouTeach me what to do, my LordTeach me what to doI just want to be with You Only You You know what I'm going throughYou know that I need YouLet my heart be touched to know for sure it's YouI need YouTo fill my heart anewTo help me know the truthThat You've already given Yourself to bring me throughTo You
There're times we all feel lost.
♥ 10:13 PM
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
i learned a lesson today
i should never play with the liquid that comes out from a squeezed&squished red chilli.
hah. and never fight with a pierced chilli with that liquid dripping all over. hah. my dear funny friend got chilli stuff all over my arms during free period la! and then i was so tired&lazy so i didnt go toilet to wash off.. waliao and then i was brushing my hair off my face.. and then my face got burning sensation. lasted lyk so long la! i thought my face was swelling can. thank god it wasnt. lol! and then during geog i was sleepy so i rubbed my right eye. waliao it was sososo pain la! i cldnt see anything for a while. super super pain i cldnt open my eye. so i was blinking and blinking and tearing and tearing haha thank goodness mrs yeo didnt notice. it'd be so funny! lol. and then after blinking alot it was okay la. haha and then we had history test and then phototaking. haha iwas next to mabel for phototaking how cool is that! haha and then for the candid photo mabel was on my left and sihui and jie was on my right. haha and dingdong was in front of me! haah so fun so fun. but such a pity kara didnt come today. poor girl wasnt feeling well ): o-h wells. we shall take alot of lovely photos with kara to make it up to her. alrights? loveyous!
humhumhum.
today was a total waste of time. i shouldve learnt my lesson from those 834782475815 times it's happened already la. screw i should've know it;ll happen again. DAMN
popeedoo.
now my wrist is burning away. a patch of the skin is pink. lol. dont think it's cos of the chilli. but anyhoo it's burnburnburning and it's lyk damn tight burning feeling. like that time we used some funny funny thing to scrub the paint off our hands and then it was lyk burning sensation and then the next day the skin on our hands completely peeled off. that's lyk so disgusting la. eeyer. but this time i dont know whats causing it. poot.
humhumhum.
i'm so not going for thatthing
over my dead body, missy.
i'm gonna change blogskin soon.
hum
seems like so many people are falling sick. seems like everyones sad. everyone seems so down nowadays ):
maybe it's contagious. eh nono. not contagious but rather.. a chain reaction? hmm.
you know what.
i think i'm really hopeless at being a friend.
i dont know how to comfort people. as in. i try la. but lyk. sometimes i dont dare say anything cos the person is kinda unstable and i think the person might just want to be alone for a moment.. but yet.. sometimes the person cries bcos the person needs concern.. that's why i usually dont know what to do or say. i want to show my concern. but yet i dont wanna say too much. BAHH. i'm such a lousy friend.
and somehow although im super crybaby i just dont seem to cry much when my frens are crying their hearts out in front of me..
am i really so cold and emotionless?
bleargh
sometimes i just feel so numb.
yeah baby you've slapped&stabbed&poked me till i cant feel a thing.
freak i'm a horrid friend. sorry everyone. i heartyou! and i swear i really do care. lovelovelove.
TOUFU
but sometimes. i'd suddenly be so caughtup in my thoughts. i;d think about everything that went wrong. and flashback over and over again. that's when i get moody. and then i;d breakdown. yeah. the freaking waterworks. thats when ive just gotta stop whatever dumb shit i'm doing. that's when i screw my studies and everything else. that's when i need my time alone. and that's the worst time to scold me. that's the worst time to force me to do what i dont wanna do. it's my time to let go everything that ive been holding back.
eh.
wth. why am i blogging all this.
BAHH/
guess what!
my wrist aint painpain anymore. oh goodness (:
hm. i'm getting tired. but i shall be hardworking and do my math homework. which is not due tmr. but since i'm a HARDWORKING girl, although it's already 11, i'll just get over and done with it tonight. and then pack my stuff and go to sleep! oh yes, theres swimming pe tmr. i hope it'll be nice and sunny. (:
It's just a ride, it's just a ride; don't be scared now; dry your eyes. It may feel so real inside; but don't forget enjoy the ride
♥ 11:02 PM
Monday, August 01, 2005

Jem - Just A Ride
Brought to you by the [
Musicfactory© ]
Life, it's ever so strange
It's so full of change
Think that you've worked it
out then BANG
Right out of the blue
Something happens to you
To throw you off course
and then you
Breakdown
Yeah you breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared
don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don't forget it's just a ride
Truth, we don't wanna hear
It's too much to take
Don't like to feel out of control
So we make our plans
Ten times a day
And when they don't go
our way we
Breakdown
Yeah we breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared
don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don't forget it's just a ride
Slowly, oh so very slowly
except that
there's no getting off
So live it, just gotta go with it
coz this ride's, never gonna stop
Breakdown
Don't you breakdown
No need to breakdown
No need at all
Because
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you all around
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared now
dry your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don't forget enjoy the ride
♥ 10:29 PM
but i don't have a tagboard yet. mommie? i don't have the email. yup. and i have so many THINGS TO DO lyk ISO which is project work which i've explained many times b4 and the stupid microsoft word ain't cooperating. the tables keep overlapping. B-L-E-A-R-G-H.
hello mommie fresh milk! :) thnx for letting me blog! which is why i end up with a blog anyway. yeah so thnx for that too i guess.
♥ 4:35 PM